Why does my mind vanish at random points?
Published Friday, April 28, 2006 by Vriaeliss | E-mail this post
I really feel I need to get myself back to church this week... I don't care if I'm missing both legs... I'm going.
Thanks to random (and not-so-random) circumstances, I haven't been able to get to church since the 2nd... and I'm really feeling the emptyness that comes from my sad tendancies to vegetate and not seek much stimuli at home. When I get out on sundays to go and hear God's Word, I often can spend the week persuing the idea presented, or other spurred by my investigations. As you can see, I haven't really touched my journals since the beginning of the month (not seriously at least). This is primarily due to the mindless state I feel I fall into when I think things like "I should work on my next post," or "I should update my journals, just 'cause," or anything that threatens production. It's really irritating to the part of my mind that's still functioning relatively regularly... unfortunately, that's apparently not the part of my mind that controls my body.
On the plus side, or the down side, depending on which way you look at it; I haven't caught the big, bad virus that's been kicking people off their feets. Good, because I'm not stuck in bed. Bad, because it'd be some form of sad justification attempt on my part for my spiritual and intellectual stagnation I've been participating in. I can't get over how much it sucks.
Random side-note from work, which I could jump to unfounded conclusions and think, "Hmm, I wonder if God's telling me something?"
April 21st: Jillian(call center) and Sherry(HR manager) leave Lyon Travel (Jillian quit and Sherry's moving)
April 24th: Beth(Accounting manager) announces that she's leaving Lyon for a new job on the 12th of May
April 28th: Kristy(operations, and pregnant) announces out of the blue that today's her last day. Permanent maternity leave.
That's FOUR people gone in 7 days... That's insane for a small company like Lyon (and rather sucky for everyone who's left... 'cause that's a lot of slack to suddenly have to pick up). It also seems final that my IS position is going poof on the 31st of May (Maybe they'll let my finish the week if I don't have something else by then). There's not IS budget for me, but there's budjet for basically 5 new manager positions(HR/Accounting/Program Development/Sales/Operations) and 2 Call Center positions. None of which I'm qualified for. Suck. Guess I'll be planning on leaving Lyon behind as a positive mark on my resume and a good 5 months of experience in office/business type work under my belt. I'm still so very much endepted to Sean for making the job for me. We're both pretty sad the the position can't be funded by the IS budget.
Fortunately, aside from the stagnation bit which may or may not be partially resulted from the work front, this hasn't effected my faith at all. God's still as there for me as ever, and I trust Him that He is. Even though my prayers for my wife haven't been enough to heal her, I know God's still there. I think that I can't imagine the circumstance that would make me deny my faith, so that's good at least. It's just the persuit of God and His Word that I've been lagging.
On that note, would everyone please pray for Naomi? and Lyssa? and everyone who's being attacked by this virus?
Thanks to random (and not-so-random) circumstances, I haven't been able to get to church since the 2nd... and I'm really feeling the emptyness that comes from my sad tendancies to vegetate and not seek much stimuli at home. When I get out on sundays to go and hear God's Word, I often can spend the week persuing the idea presented, or other spurred by my investigations. As you can see, I haven't really touched my journals since the beginning of the month (not seriously at least). This is primarily due to the mindless state I feel I fall into when I think things like "I should work on my next post," or "I should update my journals, just 'cause," or anything that threatens production. It's really irritating to the part of my mind that's still functioning relatively regularly... unfortunately, that's apparently not the part of my mind that controls my body.
On the plus side, or the down side, depending on which way you look at it; I haven't caught the big, bad virus that's been kicking people off their feets. Good, because I'm not stuck in bed. Bad, because it'd be some form of sad justification attempt on my part for my spiritual and intellectual stagnation I've been participating in. I can't get over how much it sucks.
Random side-note from work, which I could jump to unfounded conclusions and think, "Hmm, I wonder if God's telling me something?"
April 21st: Jillian(call center) and Sherry(HR manager) leave Lyon Travel (Jillian quit and Sherry's moving)
April 24th: Beth(Accounting manager) announces that she's leaving Lyon for a new job on the 12th of May
April 28th: Kristy(operations, and pregnant) announces out of the blue that today's her last day. Permanent maternity leave.
That's FOUR people gone in 7 days... That's insane for a small company like Lyon (and rather sucky for everyone who's left... 'cause that's a lot of slack to suddenly have to pick up). It also seems final that my IS position is going poof on the 31st of May (Maybe they'll let my finish the week if I don't have something else by then). There's not IS budget for me, but there's budjet for basically 5 new manager positions(HR/Accounting/Program Development/Sales/Operations) and 2 Call Center positions. None of which I'm qualified for. Suck. Guess I'll be planning on leaving Lyon behind as a positive mark on my resume and a good 5 months of experience in office/business type work under my belt. I'm still so very much endepted to Sean for making the job for me. We're both pretty sad the the position can't be funded by the IS budget.
Fortunately, aside from the stagnation bit which may or may not be partially resulted from the work front, this hasn't effected my faith at all. God's still as there for me as ever, and I trust Him that He is. Even though my prayers for my wife haven't been enough to heal her, I know God's still there. I think that I can't imagine the circumstance that would make me deny my faith, so that's good at least. It's just the persuit of God and His Word that I've been lagging.
On that note, would everyone please pray for Naomi? and Lyssa? and everyone who's being attacked by this virus?
About Me
- Name: Vriaeliss
- Location: Brattleboro, Vermont, United States
Graduated college with a BA in Graphic Design. Married my wonderful wife on July 30th of the same year (we met in college) after over 2.5 years of courtship. Always been interested in computers and web sites. Computers always seem to like me too, either that or I just tend to time my arrival to help people right when the problems resolve themselves :P Accepted Christ as my personal Savior Nov. 14th 2002. Still growing best I can in my faith.
So what happened? Did you go? Did you get anything out of going this week if you did go?
Honestly, before I graduated and moved back here I never used to go to church every week. But since joining the choir I've been going basically every week (except for special circumstances, like Easter). And I'm really glad I have been doing so.
I have a hard time keeping any specific ideas from a sermon in my head as the week goes on, even if I find the sermon meaningful at the time. But I think the thoughts and ideas do shape my thinking to some degree even if I don't specifically think about them during the week.
Beyond sermons and concrete ideas though I get a lot out of going to church. More intangible things that are difficult for me to put into words. I would try but I suspect you have an idea of what I mean.
Oh, and Naomi and the other sick persons where already on my list of people to pray for. :-)
Yeah, I did go. I intend to write a post when I've properly reseached the ideas brought forth last week, namely I want to explore "What really is a King?" and bring forth the reality of what Yeshua expects from us as the "King of Kings, and Lord of Lords" when we (Christians as a whole) profess Him as such quite readily without, I wager, most of us realizing what that entails.